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12dpo bfn then bfp - We had been trying for 10 cycles without any luck and that cycle we only

I tested first last Wednesday and got a bfn then a positive on the Friday

I did with my first. I tested on the first day of my missed period then a couple days later and again few days after that, all negative. I thew my hands up in the air and waited for AF. Got busy with life and became distracted from testing until one late night it occurred to me that AF was almost a month late. I tested that very moment and got a faint line.I had almost no symptoms pre-bfp and alot of symptoms pre-bfn so unfortunately I'm not a fan of getting hopes up over symptoms. I just had a dry throat and cramps on the day of implantation. That on your pic could be an implantation dip though. I wouldn't test till 12dpo or so as it can take even longer than that for a bfp to show up.The next 4 were positive haha. I am so cheap, I wait till the day I am due at least...I know sometimes you can get a BFP before, but I tested at 14DPO and got a faint line, darker each day after. tiggernorton04. I got a BFN 12 dpo 3 days before AF was due. Then I tested on the day AF was due at 15 dpo and got BFP!Mar 27, 2012 · I've had the most beautiful charts end up with BFNs, and the one BFP I did have (that ended in a loss over a year ago) was a pretty ugly chart really - there's no consistency there. Most cycles I have a supposed 'implantation dip' at about the 'right' time, but I'm still not pregnant. Anyone got a bfn 12dpo then positive after? Cara422 10/09/20. Hi all, We're due to start another round of IVF on my next period but it hasn't started. It was due last Friday but it didn't arrive and I'm feeling the same pregnancy symptoms as I did with my daughter who was conceived through IVF. I keep getting bfn's but we only bd 12 ...I'm currently 8 DPO with TTC #2 with my partner. Currently have very swollen, veiny heavy and warm bbs, huge headache, dry mouth, "damp" feeling down there (TMI) feeling full down there with on and off pun pricks and light cramps (right sided) sore underarm pits and tired, irritable and hungry but then feel sick.Tested again today at 12 dpo and it didn't look any darker. I also did a clear blue digital which said "not pregnant" but I opened it up and saw two faint lines in the areas where the test would come up. Am I out for this month or is it still possible to have bfp (AF due in 3 days). Add message.Like. With DD I had an obvious BFN on a FRER 10dpo and a faint BFP 11dpo with FMU also with a FRER confirmed with clearblue digital same day at 10:am. This time I had BFN 8dpo BFP 9dpo Ovulated on CD18 both times. I had two positive OPK last Tuesday and Wednesday, BD’d Tuesday night and Wednesday morning.A negative result at 12 DPO isn’t always accurate — especially if the pregnancy test doesn’t detect lower levels of hCG. Many at-home tests are most effective at determining pregnancy from the date your period was supposed to start. In fact, some women at 12 DPO get a BFN then a BFP result a few days later!update** i'm 14dpo now, still no sign of AF. Did test today but I did yesterday and got a BFN. I typically spot at least 2-3 days prior to my flow and I should have started my flow yesterday...still no sign of AF today either.Mar 19, 2009 · PurpleSox_LS. Mar 19, 2009 8:03AM. LH86 got a BFN at 12DPO and then at 18DPO she got a BFP on CBD. Lil2008. Mar 19, 2009 8:06AM. Maybe I should invest in one of the CBD instead of the internet cheapies. Although it would probably be my luck to get AF as soon as I got back from the shops! Without the vital implantation process, you cannot expect to know if you are pregnant. Implantation occurs anywhere between 6 to 12 DPO, more commonly between 8 to 10 DPO. However, further on, some women may begin noticing some pregnancy symptoms. At 8 DPO, for example, signs like morning sickness, light spotting, and breast tenderness may emerge.If you get a BFN (big fat negative test result) ... 12 DPO symptoms gone, then BFP. Another important hormone to be aware of is hCG (human chorionic gonadotropin). ... 12 DPO symptoms disappeared after BFP. If you saw a second line and then your signs and symptoms disappeared, you should try testing again.Just went through the same thing...BFN's until 15 dpiui, then gave up for a few days waiting for AF who never showed up, POAS again on day 20 piui and BFP. Beta hcg was also positive at 116, but then two days later my second beta was 56 I apparently had a late implantation which is linked with early m/c. GL to you. hunnybunny614 member.Guessing at when I Oed, I’d be 12dpo today…here’s the breakdown of symptoms for anyone whose interested: O day: ewcm; bloating; intense right ovary pain (had to use a heat pad all night) 1dpo: body aches. 2dpo: ewcm; cramps & backache. 3dpo: feeling happy; progesterone blood test came back at 18.7. 4dpo: bloating; nausea; acne; heartburn ...Cervical Position. The position and texture of your cervix will change during your cycle: During menstrual bleeding, the cervix is normally low and hard and slightly open to allow the blood to flow out. It feels like the tip of your nose. After your period stops, the cervix remains low and hard and the opening to the uterus (uterine os) remains ...Feb 10, 2011 at 9:07 AM. Hey girls! I'm 13DPO & just tested & got a bfn :, ( AF due today... No AF cramps, just weird pinches & twinges everywhere! & creamy/watery white/clear in color cm! Waves of nausea for days & days... Headaches near my temples & between my eyebrows (never get those)... Back spasms mostly on the left side..Closed my eyes saying "when I see the BFN just move on and stop fooling yourself " but - there was a "Pregnant 1-2 " on it .My levels must have jumped up as a BFN on digital yesterday morning to a BFP today. Trying to research on the net and for 16dpo a 1-2 is low level and I am finding lots of ladies reporting a Chemical Pg with scenarios like ...Nenababy9 ~ I'm 12dpo today and waaay too freaked out to test. I am positive you can get a BFN on 11dpo and still get a BFP before AF shows. All depends on when implantation happens. I think 11dpo ...I had almost no symptoms pre-bfp and alot of symptoms pre-bfn so unfortunately I'm not a fan of getting hopes up over symptoms. I just had a dry throat and cramps on the day of implantation. That on your pic could be an implantation dip though. I wouldn't test till 12dpo or so as it can take even longer than that for a bfp to show up.It's quite common to have a negative pregnancy test at 8 DPO. Remember, if conception has occurred, then implantation is likely to happen between days 8 and 9. It takes another 2 days for hCG to be produced in high enough levels to be detected by a pregnancy test. All a negative pregnancy test at 8 DPO tells you is that there's no ...hey guys. feeling discouraged. no period yet but all my tests have been negative. my LH is VERY high for me though, which is odd. will you please tell me if you know of anyone getting their bfp after 14dpo? need some hope♡OPK's and CM but I have had spontaneous long cycles or anovulatory cycles in the past so I am probably just having one of those. I thought I got a faint BFP at 17 DPO, but I think now they were evap lines. However, in my hopeful research I saw some ladies who had gotten even faint BFP at 26 DPO and it made me curious how it could be possible.Hi ladies i m 5 weeks.i have 2 losses this year in febraury and april.now hoping this one is sticky .bean.just want to share my symptoms 8-10 dpo cramps was sure af is coming early . i even had to take pain killer to ease my cramps 10 dpo creamy cm 11 dpo all af sypmtoms fade away 12 dpo nothing 13 dpo BFP This cycle one thing i do differntly is keeping my feet up the wall after bding.had sex ...Apr 30, 2020 at 3:21 PM. Hi all, I’m 10 dpo and just took first response with BFN. I’m trying to hold hope that this is still our month!! I feel SO pregnant with lots of early symptoms (nipple soreness, cramps, mild nausea, metal mouth, you know the signs!!) Honestly, if we’re not prego I’ll consider myself crazy!!Re: If you spotted before your BFP, come in... At 14 and 15 DPO which was the day before and the day of my BFP, I had spotting. The day before my bfp I had pink spotting in the morning and a tiny big early in the day and then nothing. The day of my bfp I had pink spotting in the morning which turned to light brown spotting throughout the day.I had almost no symptoms pre-bfp and alot of symptoms pre-bfn so unfortunately I'm not a fan of getting hopes up over symptoms. I just had a dry throat and cramps on the day of implantation. That on your pic could be an implantation dip though. I wouldn't test till 12dpo or so as it can take even longer than that for a bfp to show up.Every woman will get her BFP, or her period, when the time is right for her. You can find stories online of very late BFPs – some at up to 6 weeks pregnant. There are even stories about some pregnant women who never got a positive pregnancy test. It’s possible to have low hCG levels and still have a healthy pregnancy.I'm either 13 or 14DPO. My 1st +opk was Apr1st at 8pm and on Apr2nd a -opk at 10am so either I o'd then or on Apr3rd. Today is cycle day 28 and normally i have 26 day cycles so I should have started AF yesterday but instead I got light pink tinged/clear CM and a tiny bit of brown discharge once at 12pm and again around 10pm same thing today.I got a BFP on 12 dpo which was earlier than my 1st pregnacy. I started testing at 8,9,10 and 11 dpo and got BFN's every day. I knew it was too early but just could not resist the urge to POAS. LOL.4. In Trying to Conceive. Two BFP/dye stealers today but don't know when I conceived. June 30, 2023 | by re1200. I recently got my IUD out at the end of March. I had a regular period March April and may (a little lighter than usual) but June is where it gets weird.Every woman will get her BFP, or her period, when the time is right for her. You can find stories online of very late BFPs – some at up to 6 weeks pregnant. There are even stories about some pregnant women who never got a positive pregnancy test. It’s possible to have low hCG levels and still have a healthy pregnancy.Mrs R17. Hi all, Just wondering if anyone has experienced this but got a BFP down the line. My last period was on the 8th Feb, ovulate 22nd/23rd and DTD every day or every other day for the whole week before. I had cramps 3DPO and then they went away... had a stressful end of the week last week and then 8DPO I started having period cramps.I had brown spotting starting on 11 dpo. Took a pregnancy test, BFN. Continued to spot brown for several days, including a couple of bright red wipes (I was convinced I was out), but then it stopped. Went in for a blood test 15 dpo and BFP!!!!0. Hi ladies, I tested at 15 dpo (and 3 times before at 11dpo, 12 dpo and 13dpo) and got a bfn, i didnt test again until 18dpo when i started to get pregnancy symptoms and i got a very clear bfp. Good luck and baby dust! Good luck in you next cycle clo_mid *hugs*. #18 Baby_Dust, Dec 30, 2010.But then, today, I got nothin.' ... Today is either 9 or 12 dpo (not charting or temping just going natural for now) and I had the exact same thing this morning coupled with cramping (which I never get) and a bfn this morning (really just have no self control). I didn't know if implantation could come with clotting ( only one and only once) so ...The moment I wake up. Like say. If you go to bed at 21:00, and you wake up at 3 or four. Take the test then. Don't go back to bed and take the test at 6:00 when you wake up. I hope you get that BFP...for me it was. 9dpo - FRER bfn. 10dpo - ASDA bfn. 11dpo - CLEARBLUE bfn then evap line. 12 dpo - FRER very very very faint line after 7 minutes , thought possible evap. 14dpo - FRER faint positive, 2 CB faint positive. 15dpo - CB digital FMU BFN. 15dpo - FRER SMU faint positive. 15dpo - ASDA BFP stronger.Negatives until 12dpo I got a VVVVVVFL on some cheapies which eventually faded. Overtime I kept getting faints or what seemed like negatives. 16dpo i got a super faint line , i thought it was a chemical so i let it go. 17dpo faint but darker , 18dpo Faint in the morning - BFP in the evening 💕Then more spotting followed by fainter BFP and tested again next day getting BFN. Now I have been spotting with the occasional tiny bit of red but mostly brown (sorry TMI) for almost a week but feeling really sick so took another HPT this afternoon (nearly missed peeing on the last stick I have for now) and got a super faint line!4. In Trying to Conceive. Two BFP/dye stealers today but don’t know when I conceived. June 30, 2023 | by re1200. I recently got my IUD out at the end of March. I had a regular period March April and may (a little lighter than usual) but June is …11 DPO - cramps, tender BBs, frequent urination, skin break out and irritability - BFN 12 DPO - temp spike (beginning of possible triphasic pattern), cramps, tender BBs, frequent urinationRe: Request for optimism: BFP (after BFN) >12 DPO? snowkiwi member. March 2011. I had my BFN at 14dpo, and then my BFP using FRER at 17dpo, and again on the digital at 18dpo (the day AF was due). It just made me realise that waiting until AF is due is probably the best thing, and prevents getting upset by a BFN.10DPO - continued with my one step. BFN. 11DPO - one step and frer. Both what seemed like faint lines but I’m aware of my line eyes. Hubby couldn’t see. All the usual symptoms which could be AF (sore boobs etc) BUT I have this niggling feeling in my left side. I can’t shake.same!!! 12 dpo bfn so far.. af is due tomorrow though but my cervix is high and kinda hard. Hoping I just test late and get a bfp. But feel like I’m out due to all the early positives.Feb 22, 2011. Messages: 33. Likes Received: 0. I got the whitest IC test, I think about 10/11 DPO. I had given up & was so sick of trying, so sick of seeing BFN. (We were on our 10th cycle) Then the next morning, I tortured myself again by POAS (damn 10 pack of IC's! lol) and I forgot about it...Came back 10 min later & wouldnt ya know..BFP ...15dpo- brown spotting, BFP: Currently 15dpo, I have been taking my body basal temperature for a few months now. My period was due yesterday, your temperature will decrease that day its ment to arrive but yesterday mine went up and also today. Today is test day. I did wake up with slight spotting. Dark and pale pink. On and off all day. I did have a restless nights sleep as cramps ...Then it stopped completely. Now I'm cd32 and still no sign of af but I've had 2 negative tests for the past 2 days I've felt so nauseous in the afternoons terrible headache and had 2 dizzy spells which I never usually get. I had cramps also last night and today so nervous perhaps it is my af but just can't shake this sicky/dizzy feeling!What are the symptoms? So let's find out all there is to know about 12 DPO, with a little help from embryologist and fertility expert, Navya Muralidhar. In this article: 📝 What can I expect at 12 DPO? Is 12 DPO still early to test? Can you implant at 12 DPO? Can you have pregnancy symptoms 12 DPO? Key takeaway What can I expect at 12 DPO?If implantation occurs up to 12 DPO (6 DPO is early, 9 DPO is average), then it's more likely you won't get a BFP until you actually miss your period at 15DPO. But there are so many people on here who get them much sooner, it can make it seem more normal to get early BFP's than later one's. Like. w. wifeyandmommy15.Went dizzy 12 dpo - BFP!!! really faint but there! Tested again at work with a different brand BFP bit darker. Still had back ache in lower part, BB's slightly more tender. Watery and some yellow CM 13 dpo - BFP! Slightly darker, BB's tender, back ache, dizzy spell. Watery CM with some yellow. 14 dpo - BFP! Still not colour of control line but ...Etoile33. Aug 30, 2011 at 7:48 AM. Hi everyone, I'm new here, but have been reading everyone's helpful posts for a while now. I took at test at 7 dpo, and got a BFN. Wasn't too concerned because i knew it was still early. Took a test this morning at work, 11 dpo (I know, silly, but I couldn't wait a second longer).17%. Average time between the expected period and the first positive pregnancy test: 0.5 days before the expected period. Percentage of negative test results taken three days or more before the expected period day on non pregnant charts: 40.7%. The graphs below represent the distribution of positive tests with respect to the day of the expected ...Hi ladies i m 5 weeks.i have 2 losses this year in febraury and april.now hoping this one is sticky .bean.just want to share my symptoms 8-10 dpo cramps was sure af is coming early . i even had to take pain killer to ease my cramps 10 dpo creamy cm 11 dpo all af sypmtoms fade away 12 dpo nothing 13 dpo BFP This cycle one thing i do differntly is …August 2012. If you can get to the newbie link, it shows the percentage of how accurate a test is past ovulation, the farther after ovulation, the more accurate it is. However, you are not out until AF shows, so keep testing once a week until you get AF, a BFP, or hit 60 days. You could just have ovulated later than you think, and are therefore ...None were frer (can't get them here) but 2 were early cb and 2 normal ones. Could see faint line on all but more obvious on the early detection CB. Here is a pic of this mornings early detection CB and it's def getting stronger. But for AF 6days (cd36) late if I'd ovulated where I thought I did cd15/16 then obviously line isn't that strong but ...This is baby number 1 for me and hubby! At 12 dpo I had a very light flow...it was dark red (sorry if tmi) but it only lasted for a day. I spotted the day before & the day after (11 dpo & 13 dpo). At 14 dpo (when af was due) nothing but brownish spotting only when wiping. Then 15 dpo nothing at all.OR you can search the FF charts. I've seen quite a lot of BFP charts after 12 DPO on FF. Warning No formatter is installed for the format bbhtml Report 0 Reply. ... but I think I tested around 12 DPO and got a BFN, then started spotting for two days. After that didn't turn into a real period, I tested again (I guess around 14 or 15 DPO) and it ...Posted 04-18-16. Symptoms: Enlarged breasts. Areola pigment spreading. Nausea. Vivid dreams. Tested at 9dpo with FRER & then at 11&12dpo with CBD and got BFN's. I know it's still kind of early but ...Conception Follow topic Heeelp!! 12DPO and BFN. Please share your BFN and then BFP? 25 replies tripnbird · 22/12/2019 01:33 Heeeelp!! Tested this morning at 12DPO and got BFN on a FRER! I'm starting to get pessimistic for this cycle, but maybe because I really wish to see that second line!Guessing at when I Oed, I’d be 12dpo today…here’s the breakdown of symptoms for anyone whose interested: O day: ewcm; bloating; intense right ovary pain (had to use a heat pad all night) 1dpo: body aches. 2dpo: ewcm; cramps & backache. 3dpo: feeling happy; progesterone blood test came back at 18.7. 4dpo: bloating; nausea; acne; heartburn ...I was 12dpo when I got my BFP. Everyone is different. I had absolutely nothing on 10dpo - not even a faint line. Then on 11dpo I had a faint line, then on 12dpo I had a strong line on two different tests and a positive on a CB digi. Everyone is different. Some people don't test positive on at home pg tests until they're like 4-8 weeks pg!!! Crazy!!Feb 21, 2015 at 8:32 AM. @BlueBettas, I'm also 15 dpo (AF due yesterday) and still testing negative . Fingers crossed you get your BFP tomorrow :) j. jewls47. Feb 21, 2015 at 10:23 AM. Girls I'm in exactly the same boat! I have sticks so I test at will and all BFNs since 7dpo.I got my bfp very faint the evening 11 dpiui. Then still a really faint bfp 12 dpiui w/ my fmu. I would wait till 2morrow morning & take w/ fmu. Your urine may have been deluted you are not suppose to pee or have much to drink for 4 hrs. Before testing! Good luck, babu dust! B. Becks2014. Dec 19, 2011 at 12:19 PM.Posted 10-05-12. To actually have "implantation bleeding" you need a BFP otherwise your are just having spotting. Not much you can do except keep testing. 3. t. tmn2011. Posted 10-05-12. IB is ...xkrystiex. Posted 06-10-21. So as the post says I'm currently 9dpo and getting BFN's which I understand as its still early and AF isn't due for 6 days yet. I had some cramping on the left side of my uterus around 6dpo then the next day woke up to tender b**bs Fast forward to today and I had very little faint pink spotting just the once this ...Who got BFP after 12dpo? 15 answers /. Last post: 25/04/2020 at 12:47 pm. Sal C (8) 22/04/2020 at 2:30 am. So today I'm 12po and period due today based on last month's cycle but my cycles can very from 28-34 days so might be just that it's going to be a bit later this month but I'm just wanting to hear from people who didn't get their bfp till ...Tested today, 12 dpo, BFP. I also tested at 10 dpo and got a BFN. Warning No formatter is installed for the format bbhtml Report 0 Reply. HisLovf member. ... I tested 10dpo and got a BFN. Then tested 14dpo and got a BFP. Report 0 Reply. dan&jon11/11/06. December 2008. 10 DPO...faint line . Report 0 Reply. jkipp82. December 2008.Larger breasts can start manifesting as early as 10 DPO and keep growing from then on . You may also notice a crisscrossing of blue vessels across your growing bosom as blood flow increases to the area to prepare for breastfeeding. 10. Moodiness. You are riding the waves on a stormy sea during the early stages of pregnancy.Yes it causes so many women to think they have a bfp but it ends up as a chemical that occurs on the day you expect your period😕 my LP is 12 days long so I wait until 12/13dpo to test. If your LP is 14 days then you need to wait until 14/15 dpo. Although I ended up with an early miscarriage. Definite bfp at 13dpo and then bled 3 days later 😕Never had a bfp but wanted to say goodluck, there has been a couple of girls on the board who had bfn at 12dpo and some have even had bfn until 7days after af was due and then had a bfp so it is possible but dont be disheartend if it is a bfn, there is all ways next month - hard i know but enjoy the bd :) and good luck ;) (2 replies)Nausea at 12 DPO. Cramps like period cramps (cramping 12 DPO) Tender breasts at 12 DPO (If you are experiencing less breast pain, our article decreased breast tenderness in early pregnancy may explain why.) Fatigue at 12 DPO. Low mood at 12 DPO. Headache at 12 DPO. Increased body temperature at 12 DPO.Great memory, kimmie! I got BFN including on 14dpo, then BFP at 15dpo. Report 0 Reply. jjames2901. November 2008. When I was KU last time I got a BFN at 10dpo and a BFP on 13dpo. ... i've never been able to get any BFP before 12DPO! my cyle is 28 days like clockwork so AF is usually also 2 wks after OI got a BFN at 10 dpo with a $ tree test. My temps remained elevated, so I took a FRER at 14 dpo and got my BFP. Good luck! olivejuice127. I didn't get a BFP until weeks after ovulation! GL! Report. MrsJinNH. I feel like I just saw a post from someone on GP that got BFNs on day 10 and 12 and then a BFP on 16DPO.My cycles are 26 days, I ovulated on day 13. I'm 11 DPO today & due for AF in 3 days (so, 4 days away from my supposed missed period). I used a FRER both yesterday & today (on 10 & 11 DPO) & got BFN's!! I guess what throws me off is the fact that according to the info on here (and survey) for FRER, by 11 DPO most people (over 80%) get their BFP ...9dpo - BFN am feel like symptoms going away, bad feeling AF is just round the corner :( cramped stopped . 10 dpo - BFP!!! 11 dpo - sometimes so hungry and would eat everything, then couldn't even look at food. EXTREME tiredness . 12 dpo - emotional in am, darker BFP. Shooting pain in right boob for about 5 mins, noticing the white bumps are ...Like the title says, I am now 12DPO and I was so convinced I was going to get the BFP this month. I got 2 +OPK and we done loads of BDing (before, during and after) ;). But I would say I am 99% I can feel AF coming on. We haven't been trying for long but I was so convinced this would be it. I sometimes travel with work and my OH works away from ...Every woman will get her BFP, or her period, when the time is right for her. You can find stories online of very late BFPs – some at up to 6 weeks pregnant. There are even stories about some pregnant women who never got a positive pregnancy test. It’s possible to have low hCG levels and still have a healthy pregnancy.I usually come on about 8-9dpo. I tested the day before I thought i was due and got a bfn, then started bleeding so assumed it was AF. I didn't test again til after the bleeding stopped and got a strong bfp. Think it was 2-3 weeks on a cbd. I'm nearly 11 weeks now. I had some early scans because of the bleeding and a history of miscarriage.Knowing that a lot of people have gotten BFN at 12dpo then BFP at 14dpo makes me feel better. I've also been testing with $ store tests because I dont' want to spend all the money on the early ...Anyone had BFN 12dpo & gone on to have BFP. Tmaz09 11/12/21. Feeling sad about having a nega, for me it was. 9dpo - FRER bfn. 10dpo - ASDA bfn. 11dpo - CLEARBLUE bfn then evap line. 12 dpo - FR, Posted 19-04-10. I got a negative pregancy test result at home on 17 dpo. I am now 20 dpo , 04/06/2020 at 8:13 am. 10dpo is still really early, implantation can be up to 12dpo, A BFN at 11 DPO may mean your body hasn't reached threshold levels of hCG for home pregnancy, Oct 26, 2010 at 5:59 AM. @Loulou78, I got bfn at 10,11dpo, 9 dpo would be very early for a bfp, I got a bfn at 11dpo then at 13 su, i didnt get bfp to 12dpo then 11dpo with this one #9 babyhope, Please done read and run ladies xxxxx. 0. See last answer. Anonymous, C. Feb 21, 2010 at 5:07 PM. k. Feb 21, 2010 at 5:10 PM. You're, AF due in the next few days, so waiting to test!”. ‒ Chelsea. “, Went dizzy 12 dpo - BFP!!! really faint but there!, 15DPO BFN turned 16DPO BFP!! a. aplms. Mar 18, 2022 at 3:05 P, Sensitive/painful nipples and period pain is always my first , And there are just as many who get an 11 DPO negative pre, It's quite common to have a negative pregnancy test, Nausea at 12 DPO. Cramps like period cramps (cramping 12 DPO) Tende, It's been a hellish 2 weeks. I let myself get my hope'.